{"id":1238,"date":"2014-12-31T11:06:36","date_gmt":"2014-12-31T16:06:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.surfacefine.com\/?p=1238"},"modified":"2015-01-05T16:53:59","modified_gmt":"2015-01-05T21:53:59","slug":"flying-on-a-trapeze","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.surfacefine.com\/?p=1238","title":{"rendered":"Flying on a Trapeze"},"content":{"rendered":"

The photo at the top of the Surfacefine page is from New Year’s Eve a few years ago. It’s up there for a few reasons… \u00a01. It’s a terrific photo of my pump. \u00a02. It embraces the whole “diabetes doesn’t stop me\/ slow me down” mantra (however my eyes are closed because I was petrified). 3. \u00a0Writing a blog took me far out of my comfort zone (what really is a comfort zone anyway?) just like swinging from a trapeze did. \u00a0Blogging about diabetes has left me far less bruised than the trapeze, but being diabetic comes with a hell-of a lot of bruises… both physical and mental.<\/p>\n

I could go on and on about how a new year doesn’t carry much weight with me \u00a0(thanks Renza for listening to my theory this week) but I’d like to keep this post a bit more, well positive.<\/p>\n

In May of 2013 I started noticing hearts. Specifically I noticed a graffiti pink heat with an arrow through it drawn on a mailbox right outside the building where I live. I would find myself taking a deep breath like I was in a yoga class whenever I ‘discovered’ a heart. Gradually I started noticing hearts everywhere and occasionally posting them online. Now, a year and a half later, finding hearts has the same effect on me. Stop (Hammer time) and take a big, deep breath. People send me heart photos now. They ALWAYS make me smile. Many of the hearts I see are instantly uploaded to a Tumbler page,<\/p>\n

Found : Hearts ( http:\/\/www.spacegirlw.tumblr.com ) Here are the archives<\/a>:<\/p>\n

I want to capture that moment, that deep breath, those feelings. When people ask me “what’s the deal with you and the hearts?” \u00a0I usually tell them about taking a deep breath and stopping everything for a moment. Those hearts have far more meaning to me than viewers know, but there’s a sweet moment when I sometimes realize something that means so much to me, something that feels magical even, I can share with \u00a0just a photo.<\/p>\n

Breathe.\"image\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Listen to your heart (hey my pancreas doesn’t work so I gotta pick another organ anyway right?)<\/p>\n

Xo<\/p>\n

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